Move on

Sadly that my second year’s result was slightly worse than last year. I thought failing to get mumtaz during my first year was disappointing enough. Little did I know that my second year would be more frustrating. But at the same time, I feel really grateful to Him. To be honest I don’t think I even deserve this kind of result. It did crossed my mind that I might need to study for dur thani(reseat paper). True, the questions were unsurprisingly hard but why should I blame the questions for being so hard when I should’ve blamed myself for not making them easy.

I’m no longer a secondary school student. I’m a second year undergraduate student. I should’ve spent more time studying than wasting time on useless matters. Who said a medical student can’t play? But at least I should’ve made sure my studies weren’t left unattended. How many more failures do I need to suffer?

Why should I leave my revisions at the very last minute? That’s a lame secondary school mistake. During my secondary school years, and this includes every single school in my country especially Sekolah Berasrama Penuh, I find that their focus were on how to help student score in their examinations. For me, that shouldn’t be the case. The objectives of learning should be that we really understand the subject. Not just memorising the facts for examinations and forget them the moment we leave the examination hall.

I mean, especially those who study in professional field (and not just doctors), what’s the point of getting good grades if you yourself have no idea what you answered in the exam? We’re not gonna operate patients by answering questions. We’re not gonna build any kind of building by simply circling A, B, C or D on a multiple choice question paper. We need to really understand the subject well. We’re not studying just for the sake of good grades. We are the future doctors, engineers, scientists and more importantly, we’re the leaders of the future generation. If we who are studying in a professional field can’t get serious, are we going to depend on someone else (no offense on those who aren’t in a professional field of study) to plan our future.

Success doesn’t come just like that. It needs sacrifices, efforts and determinations. However, don’t force yourself like studying till late in the morning and imagining failures that makes your life goes miserable. Just try your best and prepare yourself to accept whatever the final result is. This is a reminder for myself especially and to those who are reading this. Easier said than done it is though.

P/S: Someone taught me this doa that I find really interesting:-

Ya Allah, andainya kejayaan dalam peperiksaan ini akan mendekatkan kami kepadaMu maka Engkau anugerahkanlah kejayaan ini kepada kami. Tetapi andainya kejayaan ini akan menjauhkan kami daripadaMu maka Engkauh jauhkanlah kejayaan ini dari kami sejauh-jauhnya.

N.B: The term ‘kami’ is used so that we don’t forget to pray for our friends too.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah kami untuk ingat dan faham apa yang telah kami pelajari. Amin.